Tag: momblog

Vol.1

When I found out I was having a daughter, I was scared, kind of upset because I had hoped for a boy, but overall I was so so excited. I was so excited to raise a little me, the dresses and bows, all things girly, I seriously couldn’t wait. They say when you have a girl you need to learn “how to mature, and grow up”, and that I did. I was a crazy party girl, had tons of friends, in and out of relationships until I met her daddy. I had just lost a baby 3 months prior to this pregnancy, alongside my father having a massive stroke, leaving him paralyzed and unable to speak, and as well as my best friend of 11 years passing away. My life was easily falling apart. I was so lost, and hurt. I would’ve turned back to the partying but probably would’ve went at it more hardcore and full force, to simply mask my depression and emotions, only IF I didn’t find out I was pregnant with my daughter. I’m very in tune with my body, always tracking my periods, but was not in any way, trying for another baby. Yet, here she was. Once I accepted it, I hoped so hard for a boy, only because I solely felt attached to the saying “if you have a boy, you needed to be shown love”, and I was in such a low state in life where I thought having a baby boy would ease my heart, but I guess God thought I deserved something as precious as a baby girl, and I was very in-denial about needing to “grow up” but that I did, and SHE definitely made me grow up.

My daughter came with some more serious challenges, such as her motor skills delay starting just at 3-4 months of age. Now her coming up on her 2nd birthday in a few months, she’s still super behind, and receiving tons of help from different doctors and therapists etc… which is perfectly fine, but being a FTM, It’s nothing I expected, and it has most definitely been challenging in more ways than one, in addition to adding in her brother who’s a year apart from her, and now welcoming another baby girl in just a few short months as well. 3 back to back to back, ITS BEEN TOUGH. But being her mom has been such a spark and light in my life, she has the most creative, funky and silly personality and I love her so much more than I could’ve ever imagined.

SO, GIRL MOMS!!!

Are you ready to talk about the attitude that comes behind their beautiful smiles? How are you REALLY doing, being a mom of a girl/girls? They are so rough and mean at times sometimes If I hear a baby cry, I think its my daughter but nope… just my son because his sister is being mean to him. My daughter is a Pisces, but I love how she so much resembles a huge lit fire.

They love to cuddle, and be as sweet as sugar, until you tell them “NO”, or until you do the opposite of what they want you to do, by then all hell breaks loose.

The bows and cute dresses typically only last until they’re crawling, or walking, because by that time they’re mobile enough to just run away, flip over, or shimmy away. They don’t want anything touching their head, and “ew!! get this scratchy thing off of me” when it comes to any pretty, dressy-like dresses.

This morning, I was upstairs getting my daughter clothes for the day and by the time I made it back downstairs, she managed to have a diaper, and wipes set out for me…how smart and sweet, letting me know she wants changed!!! EXCEPT she also took her wet diaper off, set it across the room, went into the corner and.. decided she wasn’t finished, then sat her bare butt on the floor playing with toys like nothing happened.

THATS GIRLS FOR YOU!!

Boy moms always talk about how easy boys are and how lucky you’ll feel when you have boys, and that’s somewhat true, I mean my son was shoving leaves in his mouth earlier, and actually digesting them. So yeah boys are rough, stinky & loud but girls are like a couple of drunk friends, they’re so clumsy, always crying, emotional and needy, they’re so beautiful but a mess to say the least.

and truth be told, I wouldn’t give my daughter and her beautiful mess, up for anything in the world.

This baby girl saved me. She makes me die of laughter, I can’t express to you how funny she is, how SMART she is, sometimes I wonder how mine specifically has any sort of delays because she some days, just picks up like a whole new person i’ve never seen before. She AMAZES ME. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I feel so lucky that God hand picked this perfect little girl for me.

No matter how many corners she pees in, or how messy her hair may be, how many times she screams at me and cries for no reason. All the rude attitudes and nasty looks I receive, everything this girl is…is all “I was”. You bite your own bullet when you have little girls. They spit back what you feed to them.

The love a baby girl will give you, is nothing like anyone else. They will be your best friend. They will wipe your eyes when you cry, make you laugh when you’re sad. They are truly the love and friend you always wished to have, and now you have it.

They are a forever love.

A forever friend.

Forever your baby girl.